Jas couldn’t sleep. She kept going over the conversation with James. Can this be real? Most men wanted to only be her friend. Men saw her as a little sister, someone they had to protect. She wanted more, but she always felt so insecure about herself, losing herself in her romance novels. James could be her chance at something romantic and maybe sexual. Reading about sex and actually having it were two different things. In this day and age most twenty three year olds had lost their virginity, but not her. It wasn’t like she was saving herself for marriage; there was just never a guy that took that kind of interest in her. There was this one guy in college, but sex with him wasn’t an option. Jas wasn’t attracted to him, but she did want to do some experimenting and a blow job didn’t seem out of the question. A girl has to start somewhere. Then she spent the night comforting him. The whole situation just become too odd and she was glad not to see him again. That was the extent of her experimentation. Sure she kissed her fair share of guys, but that just isn’t the same.
Was she ready for this? How well did she really know this man? He could be anybody. She’d heard the horror stories of on line dating. Of course this was a little different, but not much. She did have pictures of him, but those could be fake too. There was just something about him that called to her. Jas just hoped she wouldn’t be let down. You only live once and she wasn’t going to miss this opportunity. She always took things as they came and this wouldn’t be any different.
Sighing she settled into her bed and her last thought was of James. She fell asleep with a smile on her face dreaming of James and finally meeting him.
Arriving at work with minutes to spare she slid into her chair and hooked into her phone. Once settled she logged into her computer and hoped for an email from James. With excitement she saw the first email was from him.
Hey babe. Sorry I had to cut it short last night. I dreamt of you again. I find that most nights you are in my thoughts. I can’t wait until I can hold you in my arms and kiss you senseless. I hope you feel the same way. I’m getting nervous the closer it gets to seeing you. I have the same fears you do. I can’t go a day with out talking to you. I shouldn’t admit that. I’m supposed to be the big, tough marine, but listening to you makes me happy.
Talk to you soon
Reading James’ emails helped settle her nerves. It was nice to know she didn’t have the only fears. Of course he didn’t know if her pictures were really her either. This month needed to end. Jas just wanted to get over her shyness and hoped she didn’t freeze up when they did meet.
Jas settled into work thinking of James and wishing her day away. He was supposed to call again tonight; the day couldn’t go by fast enough for her.